alwaysdreamer

...everything's fine. Isn't it? I believe so. I'm just lying here, bubbles up to my ears, Aerosmith playing some riffs in the background and life's just great. The fact that my laptop is with me is another story. But I just realize that while taking a bath you usually don't think about all the problems you might have or the long to-do list you should be dealing with instead of lying in a pinkish colored water that makes you look like a raisin. Maybe you should, but you don't. At least I don't. It's like pressing pause on the remote control of life. I love it.
 

So... Now I finally found some time to sum up whats been going on the last coulpe of days, or maybe I should say, whats been going on this christmas.

After working 7 days straight I went into town and finished the last christmas shopping on Monday. I know it's super late and last minute, but I really hadn't had the time to do it before. And then I worked 23rd and 24th. We decided early that we're gonna do most of the celebrating on the 25th instead of the 24th. So I worked the first half of the day at Åhlens and then went home for yummie christmas lunch and watching some Kalle Anka's Jul, and then off to the volonteer event in Gothenburg. I must admit, at first I was pretty nervous. I didn't know what to expect. But it was really nice actually. You could almost touch the christmas spirit. There were christmas food, santa claus, presents, christmas tree, happy people and lussekatter everywhere. My mom and I were in charge of the coffe table and made sure eveyone there got a lot of sweets and coffie :) It was a mix of homeless people, drug addicts, alcoholics, poor poeple and just ordinary people that doesn't fit into any of those categories. After about 2 hours the minister held an evening worship. There was also this really cool piano guy who totally rocked all the religious songs and took them to a complete new level. Awesome! When it was over we helped with the cleaning and then we were ready to go. I was all warm and fuzzy inside afterwards. It felt so good. I think that they helped me more than I helped them. They helped me realize just how much I have to be grateful for and to not take it for granted. I think this is a start of a new christmas tradition.

Then on Christmas day, we had a lazy christmas :) Just eating good food, reading, watching movies - the way I like it. I'm kinda low maintenance when it comes to christmas. It's the little things that count and make it special.

Today I hit the mall, SALE :D I found some nice things, although I do miss shopping in the U.S. So much more to choose from AND cheaper ;) Shopping is exhausting though! And here I am, dead on the couch with my computer on my lap. I have som catching up to do, when it comes to everything. I finally sent my christmas cards that I wrote probably like 2 weeks ago. So sorry everyone, I know it's late, but better late than never, right? ;)

Anyway, feels nice to finally have the time to write something. Right now I'm trying to figure out a bulletproof new years resolution. Something that I can really keep....Hmm....We'll see.
Happy Holidays!
-Martina-

I know it's been a while since I posted something here... There's one simple explanation for that: I've been working a lot. Tomorrow's my 7th day in a row and I must say I'm starting to feel somewhat tired... I summed it up in my head, and so far I've been wokring 52 hours, in 6 days. So I guess I have the right to be cranky ;) But It's great though. Otherwise, not a lot of things are going on. I've almost finished my christmas shopping, only one present left. I know I'm late, but that's just me. I wrapped all the presents today. Usually I really enjoy it. I put on some christmas music and go nuts with all the kinds of wrapping papers and stuff. But this year... I don't know, it hasn't really gotten to me that it's christmas yet. Maybe it's the lack of snow, or that it just came to fast. Who knows?

But on Monday I'm gonna go shopping! Whii, can't wait! I got some gift certificates that I just neeeed to use :) And I do need some clothes. You people who know me might not agree, but it's really true. I'm only allowed to wear clothes from our store or one colored shirts and stuff. And I really have NOTHING one colored to wear (well, almost nothing). I usually wear shirts with patterns on or with a lot of different colors. So I need clothes. Period.

I'll get back here when I have something decent to write.
-Martina-

Gosh, I love my job! Seriously, it's great. Today I worked at fashion for the first time, so now I've worked at all sections and feel like I've got some sort of sense where I can find stuff. There are so many things that I like about this job. Like the people I work with. They're so wonderful and I've been lucky to have worked with all of them by now. And the customers, aah they're awesome! Haha...and believe me I've seen some characters, but they make the day more interesting. Like today for exemple, I helped this lady find reading glasses and shoes. And first I smelled this awful smell, and I couldn't really figure out where it came from. The lady looked way to clean to be smelling like a modly diaper. It was her bag. She asked me to open her bag to get her money and pay for her, and that was when I realized, there WERE diapers in there. Omg, I was about to spit up my breakfast right there. It was sooo gross! Anyway to make a long story short, this was the topic of the day at work. Everyone was talking about diaper lady. But I can't help but feeling sorry for her, but that's me.

And another example, this sweet lady came up to the regrister wearing what seemed to be a normal knitted hat underneath, but on top of it there were two plate shaped pieces of foam, in bright purple and yellow.... It was just one of those situations where you're not supposed to laugh, but you just can't help it. So I was like "200 hats....ehh I mean crones..." Embarrassing! (But fun)

Love them though. And I can't complain, there are a lot of handsome customers too :) Today I helped a guy with the widest and most beautiful smile I've ever seen. But that's another story.
-Martina-

Hey everyone. Just though I might share this video with you. It's one of all the videos Ida and I recorded while she was here visiting 2 weeks ago. It's nothing great, so don't expect that. Just for fun lol. It's a little bit off key sometimes and I screw it up with the piano every now and then. Deal with it. Haha. Anyway, enjoy!

I've been feeling a little bit under the weather these last couple of days. Not fun. So I've been sleeping most of the day. Thank god for chocolate :) It's my medicine. And a movie. It's funny how you need to be sick really sit down and watch a movie. So here I'm sitting in my room, watching 21 and being nostalgic. Gosh, I miss Boston. I can't wait to go back there some day. But I must say, Jim Sturgess is something something :)

Soon it's christmas. My christmas cd's are constanly playing and I'm starting to get in the mood. Although I would be nice with some snow. And like I said before, this year I have something special planned on Christmas Eve. The first half of the day I'm working, and then later in the afternoon I'm doing something I've been wanting to do for a very long time. Volunteering my time at this organization that helps homeless people, former drug addicts, abused people, teenagers with problems etc. I'm really looking forward to it. To finally do something for somebody else on Christmas Eve. I don't quite know what I'm gonna help with yet, but that is to find out at the info meeting in two weeks. And then I'll celebrate christmas at home on the 25th instead. It's gonna be an interesting and giving Christmas.

It's dark when I wake up. I turn off the alarm and stay in bed for a while thinking about  either going back to sleep or throwing the alarm clock in the wall. As I'm becoming more and more awake I choose none of them. I step into the shower, still half asleep, trying to discern the shampoo bottle from all the other bottles, avoiding to use the shaving gel again. Out of the shower, almost awake - still dark. Grabbing a cereal bowl and fill it up. Then make up, tothbrushes hairbrushes and all of that.  Name tag on. Leave for the bus. The cold hits me as I ask myself " did I lock the door?". Run back. The door was locked. Today as well. Earplugs in and Ipod on. Choosing an upbeat song to get into a happy mood. The bus is late again. 8 minutes later than I'm supposed to, I get on the bus on my way to work. I love staring out the window. This is my moment. I choose another song, a slow one, but I can still tap my feet to the beat. I wish that busride could last forever. Slowly, I'm starting to fall asleep. But I know it's fine, since my stop is the last one. And I think the bus driver knows it too by now. He tells me. Getting of the bus, looking at my watch and start walking fast and trying to remember all the 5 code combinations I have to use today to get through all the right doors. Start unpacking new products, helping some costumers and wroom, the day is over. Time to go home. I step outside. It's dark. Just as if it never got light. I wouldn't even notice if the sun rose or not. I walk to the bus, waiting for my almost holy busride. This time, my stop is not the last one and the bus driver doesn't know me. I can't fall a sleep. And I don't, it's too loud. The guy next to me is listening to his Ipod too, only he turns the volume up crazy loud so everone around him also has to listen to Flo-Rida and T-Pain singing "Low". Well, I don't really care, but the lady in front of me does, and she sure knows how to show it. My stop is coming up. It's really close to my house. I start walking, wondering how long it's been since I saw the sun. I get home and it's still dark. Repeat
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