alwaysdreamer

Yesterday was totally amazing. I found out that I had won a meet&greet pass + soundcheck pass with Missy Higgins before her and Ben Folds concert at the Orpheum the same night. I was so excited to meet someone who's been such a big inspiration to me. So I walked around with a big smile on my lips all day. Around 4 it was time for me to get going. I drove ( yep, I can drive now) to Alewife and took the subway to Park St. It was raining like crazy!

Then we waited, and waited... An hour later it finally started. First out was the soundcheck. It was so cool and really interesting to see. We could sit anywhere we wanted to and there were only us, like 6 people and the sound guys in the theater while the band was playing and she was singing. Magic! Then after the soundcheck we got to go backstage and get autographs. It was kind of stressful, since she had to be on stage really soon, so it was short. But I also got a picture, so I'm thrilled. Then, as a surprise from the guys who fixed the meet&greet, the one's who didn't have tickets, got one free! Did I mention that it was in the center of the orchestra?? So I got to see the concert too :) It was simply awesome! Both Ben Folds and Missy totally rocked that night.

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Finally. Today I found the song I've been looking for since July. I first heard it while shopping at Forever 21. I immidietly fell in love with it, so I asked a woman who worked there if she knew the name of it, she had no clue. Next time I was in there I heard it again, so I wrote down what I could distiguish from the lyrics (which was not a lot), tried to google it, but didn't find it. Then today it was featured on a tv show. I'm gonna try to upload it, but until then :

Santogold - L.E.S Artistes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kCeZzW54a2o

Just realized that today it's only four weeks of work left for me. Time's just flying by but at the same time standing still. How's that even possible? The thought of leaving my life here and go back to Sweden scares me. Where is 'home' now? Not in Sweden, that's for sure. And when I go back, my old life isn't waiting for me. It's not there anymore. I have to start over again. Settle in, find a job... And then, time's gonna past by so slowly. I know I'm just gonna wait for the next  stop, 'cause that's how I work. I live for the next dream, the next adventure and forget about now. Sometimes I'm so distracted I don't even now what I' doing right now. Scatterbrained. Yes, that's me in a nut shell.

Things I wanna do before I leave:
- Spend a day in Boston and take pictures
- One last visit at Natick Mall
- Buy an acoustic Taylor guitar
- Go to NYC
- Have a chill day in Harvard Sq
- Watch the movie The Depatured
- See my relatives in CT

running inside my head
pushing against my eyes
Making me squint
I think too much, I know I do
Still, I never run out of them
The thoughts
My thoughts
I often wonder 'what if?'
but then I leave it there
After all it's just a thought

Yesterday started out really nice actually. I scrappbooked a little bit, went out for a long walk and the girls came home and I helped them with homework. Then me and S went out to play soccer on the street like we always do. Well, this time, after 30 minutes of playing, I tripped over the soccer ball and fell with my bodyweight on my right arm. I think it twisted somehow 'cause I could't move it. It hurt like h*ll and I felt dizzy.

After some resting and talking on the phone with dad I decided to call my hostparents and ask them to take me to the hospital (I couln't drive myself with that arm). They left work right away and I started having second thoughts about it. What if it's nothing and I'm just a real wimp? But since I couldn't move the arm and the elbow started looking swollen I decided to have it  x-rayed. Which was good, because it was broken. So now I'm not exactly mobile with my splinted arm in a sling. But it's gonna heal before California, thank god! It's just too bad, cause I have 4.5 weeks left here and so many things I wanna to do before going back to Sweden. Aagh, I'm such a cluts!

I just got the best birthday present I could ever get: My cat didn't have a tumor, and she's coming home tomorrow!!!!
I knew you could do it.

It was really nice turning 20 after all. The day started at 6.15 when I woke up the girls. Then when they left for school I started tiding up my room. After all, on birthdays, it should be clean and pretty, right ;) Then the phone started ringing. So I was on the phone basically the whole day, it was really nice actually :) Talked to my mom a couple of times, my little cousins sang the swedish happy birthday song for me (it was so cute!), and grandma, and then some friends from Sweden called, Martina called from Austria :), and some friends here in the U.S. So it was nice! Then I baked a cake with the kids, which unfortunately turned out a little bit dry, but it was alright. And after a lovely birthday dinner for me and my hostdad who turned 58 at Paparazzi we went home to open presents :)) I feel so spoiled, not only did I get tickets for me and a friend to Cirque du Soleil, from my host family, I also got the SJP perfume and a necklace in white gold with a little dolphin :) I'm spoiled!

Then we hit Harvard Sq, heaven on earth. Urban Outfitters was still open when we got there, but I didn't go in. I'm so proud :) First we went to Bordes Cafe to celebrate the mexican independance day, which evedently was today. Then we went to the Karaoke Bar. And after some waiting, it was finally time for me and Anna to sing Dream On by Aerosmith. The only problem was that I'd forgotten that it's kind of a slow song...So after hundereds of up beat songs everybody stopped and was like "What the heck?" But when it started it was alright. we had fun anyway! Thanks Anna! Next time we'll do an up beat song and rock like crazy :) Then Kveta and Anna sang I Want It All by Queen, which was awesome! Good job, girls! Then it was already way past bedtime and really late so we went home.
What a great first american B-day!

My hostdad and I turned 79 years old altogehter :)

It took me a while but this is my official blog. A place where I can share some thoughts, be personal and think out loud. Enjoy.